i was running. my hands clutched my puffy white dress above my feet. breaths was coming in hard and fast. i was late. i dont know how i know but i just do. i turned at corners and alleys. i skidded to a stop at a function. my relatives were looking disapprovingly at my punctuality. i smiled nervously.
sorry, sorry. i'm here now.
the groom party started from behind me. men stood in a circle,blocking my groom from view.
... loving you till our breaths cast an impression in the air no more. protecting you from harm and evil intents. cherishing our melded hearts and intertwined souls forever...
i saw my groom. i fainted. when i awoke, i jumped up to marry him.
the scene changes.
we were at wedding reception. i had my arm around him and his around me. we greeted well-wishers. i straightened his collar. i took a glass of water and gave it to him. he bestowed me a smile and kissed my forehead.
are you hungry?
he shooks his head.
i'll get you a slice of cake before its all gone.
i turned to leave but he held my elbow and pulls me for a hug. my head was tilted against his shoulder. he tucked his face into my neck.
you are so good to me.
i relaxed and the corners of my lips lifted. i rubbed his back under his tux jacket.


i was waking up and i knew it. i could hear my grandma in the kitchen. feel the wind of the fan on my face. the sunlight prodding into my eyelids. i struggled. i reached hard for the leaving wisps of the dream, begging it to stay a little longer. i burrowed into my blanket, hid my face under my pillow. useless attempts.


reality sets in and i blinked awake, yearning for more of my beautiful dream. and more of him. Hilmi.